 Saturday, April 08, 2006
This will be my last post. I'm moving to another blog due to some bugs with this one :] I'll basically be ignoring this blog since i don't know how to shut it down! My new blog is : http://www.caleida.com/users/armourbearer/
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from Jeannette 2 u @ 8:05 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
This week has been super draining and yet powerful at the same time! I feel as if God has been dealing with so many issues in my life at one time. But i've learnt to differentiate between feeling drained and not doing well spiritually :] so i won't be so easily discouraged! Thank you Chuting!
Anyway, this week's Cellgroup and Service was so life-changing! It's like a word in season and even though it's concerning 2 different issues, yet it was really spot-on about all the problems i was facing not only in my life but in that week itself.
Have resolved to be a better child of God, daughter, sister, grand-daughter, friend and discipler! :]
But most importantly during our first bible study with Pastor Yock Kiang, really thank God that could take the time to revisit the basics and reset my foundations. He was sharing about being led by the Holy Spirit and how the Holy Spirit is a person. Even though it was like a known fact in my head but somehow the way he put it made me think and i realised that the Holy Spirit IS a person and i've not been treating Him like one, which is why i've come to a point in my spiritual life where i'm hitting the ceiling and working hard for a breakthrough which is so slow in coming since i don't know what issue i have to deal with to breakthrough.
And i think back of all the times when i feel so insecure because God is ultimately invisible, you can't see Him, so we tend to find a replacement for Him that is solid, that can be felt; either in friends, computer games, television, blogging, surfing the net, chocolate, finding a solitary place etc. But He is a real person, meaning that we CAN feel Him, we CAN hear Him and He CAN be real in our lives! So it depends on us to seek Him, and i realise that by finding a replacement for God, not only are we not trusting in Him that He is enough for us, but we ourselves have not fully come to the revelation that He is a person and when He says that He'll never leave us, He never will! Building our altar on other people will just result in us having to rebuild it over and over again whenever the people we place such a huge burden on, fall (which they will because we're all human and cannot take the burden of having full responisbility over other's lives, spiritual or not). Which just leads to stagnation because we'll never grow up strong and tall like a Cedar tree, but have to keep reverting back because we just refuse to place God as our solid foundation and Jesus as our cornerstone!
Not only that, but also had a revelation that not only is the Holy Spirit a person, but He is also God! :] Because He is so gentle, we often treat Him as a friend, a comforter, a helper; which He is no doubt, but we fail to recognise also that He is a sovereign God and that we are to have the fear of God and totally submit to Him too!
So that means when we are to obey Him, He's not giving us advice or suggestions merely, but commands, just that we often take Him for granted since He commands us gently and in a small voice.
Like what Chuting said during cellgroup, EVERYDAY IS A BRAND NEW START, only when we see it that way can we pick ourselves up easily from trials and falls, and most importantly, take hold and use the mercy and grace from God that is NEW EVERY MORNING! Let's just stop focusing on ourselves and wanting to take control of our lives for a minute and just trust in God for everything! It's not about us, but WHO GOD IS!
from Jeannette 2 u @ 5:43 AM
Thursday, January 12, 2006
You Raise Me Up by Josh Groben
When I am down and oh, my soul so weary
When trouble comes, and my heart burdened be
I will stand and wait here in the silence
Until You come and sit awhile with me
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on Your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be
School is officially in full-swing now and sometimes things can really get draining, both physically, emotionally and spiritually. But what Joyce Meyer shared during service about how Jesus asked Peter to go out into the deep even though he was exhausted after a night's work, is really true. These moments are rare opportunities when we can, instead of turning to our creature comforts like chocolate, exercise, sleep etc. turn to God and go deep!
Was feeling super drained and tired after trainings and homework and when i heard this song, the presence of God just came into the room and i realised that it's not about the stress, school, CCA etc. but EVERYTHING is about God and my love for Him :]
Dear God, thanks for always being there for me no matter what and being my rock and my refuge. Thank you for thinking of my character more than my comfort and for your promise that the Holy Spirit will be with me always even in school and that i can do everything whilst being led by the Holy Spirit. Thanks for being the campus of my soul to call me back whenever i stray from the path and get distracted from everyday living. Love you! In Jesus' Name i pray, Amen!
from Jeannette 2 u @ 8:10 AM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Today, finally went for my long awaited (and long put-off) dental appointment! On the car there, started feeling the jitters and kept praying :] but thank God Joanne had gone through surgery a few weeks before and she assured me that there's no pain. But still was wondering how it would feel like to have a permanent tooth, roots and all, taken out. Was wondering if they would cut the tooth into 4 pieces like they did my friend and take out piece by piece. :P
Anyway, went in and found out that it was a different dentist. worst still, a younger one! Straightaway hope faded... a new dentist recently graduated from dental school or something.. But turned out that he was nicer than my dentist. Haha.. not that my dentist was mean, just professional to the point of not caring about the patient twitching in his chair -_=
Anyway, asked the new dentist if there was going to be anaesthetic and stitches. He said "No" to stiches and "Of course, we're not going to torture you" to the anaesthetic. Haha.. The anaesthetic was painful though..the injections.. 12 altogether on my upper and lower right gums - OUCH! Then he gave me 2 panadols which i had trouble swallowing since half my face was paralysed -_- Then he proceeded to use a vice to get a grip on one of my molars and started pushing it from left to right. The nurse had to come and help hold my head still from the side :D
At one point i squeezed my eyes shut and he stopped and asked if it still hurt. haha..nice dentist! :] The dentist told me that my teeth were very interesting and looked as if he wanted to keep them after that because the roots of my teeth were slightly hooked (hence the pain).
But the pinnacle of this experience was 2 hours after the extraction, after the dentist called up and asked us to pay him and take the medicine.. haha..turned out that we left too soon. Anyway, was lying down holding an ice pack to my jaw when i decided it was time to take out the gauze so i went to the toilet and took it out. But was really painful because the anaesthetic had worn off and couldn't really open my mouth. Joanne was helping me bite on new gauze when i suddenly felt giddy. haha.. next thing i remembered was Joanne shaking me and asking me to wake up whilst laughing. Turned out i was lying on the bathroom floor sleeping, i was confused because Joanne was laughing so when she said "i can't believe u really fainted", it didn't connect because 1. she was LAUGHING.. (-_-) 2. in those few seconds, i had a dream and felt as if i had slept for hours.
Haha.. think it did me good, fainting, because really felt much better and stronger. Haha.. guess it was just the body's way of adjusting :] Anyway, all that's left is another trip to extract 2 more teeth :]!
Dear God, thank you for protecting me and for my fast healing. Give me strength and aid the healing to be fast :] Thank you God for everything, love you much! In Jesus' Name i pray, Amen! :]
from Jeannette 2 u @ 5:46 AM
Friday, January 06, 2006
Brand new year! :] Yay..
This first week has been tough.. :P The teachers are piling on the homework though! Haha.. still doing holiday homework and they've finished going through tutorials and are giving assignments.. -_=
Anyway, today was Junior-meet-Senior :] But our junior class is totally different, different subject combination and different interests :] It was quite funny, when we asked them to do self-introduction by telling us their previous CCAs and the CCAs they wanted to join in VJC, 90% said band, chinese orchestra, dance, wushu.. Our class was like "O.O!". Haha...but most of them look quite nice so after our Angel & Mortal game, hoping that maybe we can get both our classes to bond together better. :]
Squash Nationals are also coming up.. really really hoping that the coach will form a girls' team and let us compete! :]
"God, please please do a miracle and let us compete! :] But let Your will be done :]
Amen!"
from Jeannette 2 u @ 6:13 AM
Friday, December 30, 2005
Today, we have our thanksgiving CG at Church :] It was awesome! Even though the past few weeks, have been super super stressed and negative, but the message Brother Bobby shared was so inspiring! :] Even though it's one which i've heard before, it was more like a revelation today! :] Thankfulness is really super important and the key to unlocking the supernatural power of God! :]
Yay~ we even got 2nd for our group performance! :] Even though it was tough having to organise rehearsals for 9 ppl and getting everyone to be enthusiastic about it since it was the first time for many :] At first, was very discouraged and more down.. think didn't really have the strength to stir myself up.. more like not relying on God's strength.
But during the sermon, realised that throughout the holidays, i've really become a Martha and not a Mary! But only through this that i really understood that it's really very easy to slip into the 'Martha' mode especially when things get so busy. And it's easy to believe that we're still sitting at God's feet especially when we're doing everything for God but not with His strength. Or worse still, just serving and going with the momentum because of duty.
Anyway, like what Brother Bobby said, year 2006 is going to be a great year! :] When he shared his own testimony about how his year went, it was only then that i realised why Brother Bobby was a zone supervisor and why he was where he was. :] Totally and utterly amazing! And compared to what he's gone through, my problems and the things that i had to do this year became so small and actually quite easy to deal with. What impacted me the most was that i didn't even notice whether he was going through any crisis because he never fails to remain upbeat and positive, with a smile on his face, still caring about the cellgroup and the zone and continuing as if everything was ok. :]
Let's not just start the year 2006 right but end year 2005 right too! :] Like what Brother Bobby shared today, every problem/trial/crisis we went through this year was and is an opportunity for God to develop our character and stretch our capacities. So even though things may not be looking up now, i believe that from God's point of view :] we've completed His agenda for us this year and some day when we look back, we'll realize that without year 2005, we wouldn't have been able to do the things in the future! :]
from Jeannette 2 u @ 7:43 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Siyan! Hello! :] Very long never hear from you :] How're you?
Today, went to the dentist! :] Initially thought that the dentist was going to extract 4 molars but he put in the metal brace links instead :] Phew! However, the joy is short-lived because he gave me until next week to return for my teeth extraction. The worst thing was when the receptionist (or nurse) told me that the office is only open for teeth extraction in the mornings and afternoons in case there is too much bleeding! Ahh!! My imagination already ran wild, kept wondering if my artery would burst or something.. :P
Anyway, even though haven't touched my homework yet, (touched my chem notes and read at least 3 pages today), really thank God for the sudden blessing of finding a letter that said that I had received a Good Progress Award! :] Yay~ $200 blessing! Thank You God! :] And today, my parents blessed us with a new wardrobe :] haha... actually they pretty much paid for all the new furniture and even helped us to shift our bed when we were out one day. Thank You God for such beautiful parents! :]
We had rehearsals at my house today for the Zone Appreciation dinner at the end of the month :P Quite glad, because it was a good chance for the cellgroup members to really get to know one another more, already, had a breakthrough in my relationship with Bernice and Andy :] Yay.. that's very good. Even though progress seems slow, but really fasting and praying to God for our cellgroup's fellowship to be strengthened!
Anyway, realy really gonna be busy :] Haha.. moving up into gear 4 now. The pace probably won't drop until school starts and then it's study time! Haha.. anyway, this has been the most eventful, tiring, draining and in the end, most rewarding and fruitful end-year holidays yet :] Just found out that it's better to be frustrated at having too many things to do than at having wasted 6 weeks sleeping and watching TV :] Yay, breakthrough finally. Now, have to work on Christmas presents!! O.O
from Jeannette 2 u @ 7:02 AM
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