 Sunday, February 19, 2006
This week has been super draining and yet powerful at the same time! I feel as if God has been dealing with so many issues in my life at one time. But i've learnt to differentiate between feeling drained and not doing well spiritually :] so i won't be so easily discouraged! Thank you Chuting!
Anyway, this week's Cellgroup and Service was so life-changing! It's like a word in season and even though it's concerning 2 different issues, yet it was really spot-on about all the problems i was facing not only in my life but in that week itself.
Have resolved to be a better child of God, daughter, sister, grand-daughter, friend and discipler! :]
But most importantly during our first bible study with Pastor Yock Kiang, really thank God that could take the time to revisit the basics and reset my foundations. He was sharing about being led by the Holy Spirit and how the Holy Spirit is a person. Even though it was like a known fact in my head but somehow the way he put it made me think and i realised that the Holy Spirit IS a person and i've not been treating Him like one, which is why i've come to a point in my spiritual life where i'm hitting the ceiling and working hard for a breakthrough which is so slow in coming since i don't know what issue i have to deal with to breakthrough.
And i think back of all the times when i feel so insecure because God is ultimately invisible, you can't see Him, so we tend to find a replacement for Him that is solid, that can be felt; either in friends, computer games, television, blogging, surfing the net, chocolate, finding a solitary place etc. But He is a real person, meaning that we CAN feel Him, we CAN hear Him and He CAN be real in our lives! So it depends on us to seek Him, and i realise that by finding a replacement for God, not only are we not trusting in Him that He is enough for us, but we ourselves have not fully come to the revelation that He is a person and when He says that He'll never leave us, He never will! Building our altar on other people will just result in us having to rebuild it over and over again whenever the people we place such a huge burden on, fall (which they will because we're all human and cannot take the burden of having full responisbility over other's lives, spiritual or not). Which just leads to stagnation because we'll never grow up strong and tall like a Cedar tree, but have to keep reverting back because we just refuse to place God as our solid foundation and Jesus as our cornerstone!
Not only that, but also had a revelation that not only is the Holy Spirit a person, but He is also God! :] Because He is so gentle, we often treat Him as a friend, a comforter, a helper; which He is no doubt, but we fail to recognise also that He is a sovereign God and that we are to have the fear of God and totally submit to Him too!
So that means when we are to obey Him, He's not giving us advice or suggestions merely, but commands, just that we often take Him for granted since He commands us gently and in a small voice.
Like what Chuting said during cellgroup, EVERYDAY IS A BRAND NEW START, only when we see it that way can we pick ourselves up easily from trials and falls, and most importantly, take hold and use the mercy and grace from God that is NEW EVERY MORNING! Let's just stop focusing on ourselves and wanting to take control of our lives for a minute and just trust in God for everything! It's not about us, but WHO GOD IS!
from Jeannette 2 u @ 5:43 AM
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